Just Be

I just saw a onsie with this labeled on the front of it. It reminded me how becoming a mother has been a lesson in yoga itself. My darling daughter started as a lesson in patience. Those that know me, understand that I am a planner. I plan to no end, and I am always looking ahead. To begin...my daughter, Kaya, was a lesson in patience for her conception. My husband and I tried for almost a year to make this beautiful spirit. It was a long 9 months, teaching me to "just be" in my practice everyday, and not to worry about what I used to be able to do and what I wished I could do. I learned through practice, that each day brought my body, mind and spirit to a place that it could be at that given time.As my husband and I anticipated labor to begin, Kaya, again taught me patience. She was in the womb for 41 weeks and 3 days. Although, hoping for a natural birth, we finally had to listen to the doctor and what was best at the time and we were induced. Again, my plan had gone awry. I was taught quickly, to be able to live in the moment and accept the conditions I had been handed. After a long labor and pushing, we again were taught a lesson in living in the present. We went in for a C-section. I at this point had learned my lesson that Kaya was sent to each me...I just let go and tried to "just be."

Now as I enjoy motherhood, I have learned to slow down and enjoy each moment for what it is. I don't always get to my destination in the time I want to get there, but I get there eventually. My to do list doesn't get done in the timeline I had planned, but eventually I get things done. I don't always know what is about to happen any longer, because my schedule revolves around Kaya, but as things arise, I accept them and I respond to the moment.

So, although yoga teaches us these lessons, sometimes outside forces in our life seek to also teach us to be good yogis. Kaya is my outside force teaching me day by day to live day to day, and no longer plan to far into the future, but yet to be grateful for each given moment, where I am and how I am at that time and "just be."